Awwwwwww. Trust me it’s not as bad as you think…I mean don’t get me wrong, you make yourself sound really bad, (and only you know what you really are or were) but relationships are mirrors, so your partners were no better nor worse than you. Believe that. It might not be obvious, but its true.
When I was young I was in a relationship, where I was behaving very badly and believed I was getting over on the guy…turned out, he was the one playing me. I didn’t find it amusing at that time, but looking back, I think to myself, “Aha! You got what you deserved.”
Whenever you go into a relationship with foul intentions, well it’s not going to turn out right. It can’t.
When you Begin admit to yourself, “Damn I did some fucked up shit.” Well…that’s when growth can really occur. Because then you can at least start to try and figure out why you were doing that fucked up shit in the first place. And…that’s not easy. But recognition is a start.
As for love, it’s hard for all of us, but when you recognize that and at least try to figure it out you know you’re on the right track.
But…I don’t know about writing one letter to two different women (or more?). I don’t know…like if I was one of them, I’d be like damn! I can’t get my own letter?!?!?
But that’s just me.