I think what is going on (because this has happened to me) is your soul/spirit is refusing to go along with the illusion of reality (which is really sucky).
I think those of us who have “mental illnesses” are 1. In tune in ways that people who don’t have these illnesses are not (we have for lack of a better word “super powers” that we don’t quite Know how to use, and this drives us “crazy” crazy meaning a refusal to participate in “reality” which is an illusion, the way that everyone else seems to. Understanding your spirit and your soul, what it wants, is the way out. Read the Seat of the Soul. The Power of Now…it might help.,